Monday, September 20, 2010
I swear this is the last time I'm going to do this until the day that I actually tell the people off who deserve it for how they've treated me over the years. One particular person knows who they are and was wrong, period. If I was wrong then they were just as wrong and I'm not going to get over it. They didn't get over what I did, they all blew it way out of proportion instead like usual. They have no idea what our life is like, they don't care. They choose not to support us but to make things more difficult for me, I don't need them doing that. I want so badly to rid my life of them but I am still so angry over what they did. They don't respect me, they think they can say and do whatever they want and get away with it and it's WRONG! I do not like injustice or double standards and both have occurred in this situation. No matter how much you have worked with a child with special needs when it is your own child it's different, it just is, deal with it! I don't expect people to understand but be understanding and cut me a little freakin' slack, ok? Maybe I'm not the person you wanted in your life but I am here, I am Joshua's mom and I'm not going anywhere! Deal with it! I tried for so many years to do the right thing and no matter what I did it wasn't enough. I know in my heart that I did all I could do but I was not going to just sit by and let injustice happen. They can go about their lives and forget me but I will not forgive or forget what they have done unless they admit they were wrong and apologize. If you don't have a husband who owns his business AND have a child with special needs then you don't know my life! When you plan to have a child who is perfect in every way and it doesn't go as planned it hurts, I deal with enough that I don't need anything else!